What do you “think” other people think of you? What do you “think” of yourself? What do you “think” that God thinks of you? As a kid, I was one of those who was always chosen, near last, in any kind of sport, or school activity. I wasn’t particularly GOOD at anything. As I got older, my arrogance stood in the way of me being on the “high” rung, all too often. I simply didn’t care, and, everyone knew it. I was perfectly happy, and didn’t need anyone to add or subtract from my life. I was an island within myself….as the saying goes.
As I grew in maturity and age, the circumstances changed, some, but not that much. I was still my own man, and liked it that way. What others thought of me was of no concern. As to what I thought of myself….um …I have no recollection of having an opinion of myself. I suppose, though, that I must have thought WELL, enough, of myself. I LIKED myself. I was PROUD of me. I NEVER got DEPRESSED. I’ve always accepted the deck of cards that life dealt. I played with what I had, and made the best of it. Like my Dear Mother… I could make champagne out of beer. Things are pretty much the same today, as 50 years ago.
Which, brings me to the last question. What do I “think” that God thinks of me? Well, it hasn’t been until just 4 or 5 years ago, that I began to raise that question to myself. I began to think about where I stood with Him. What was His plan for me? One day, suddenly, I realized that Matthew 28:19 was speaking directly to me: Go ye therefore and preach to all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit.
Realizing that, because of my “stoic personality,” (not caring, self-contained, etc.), I was “keeping my relationship with God,” totally PRIVATE, not sharing with anyone. I took, literally, Matthew 6:5-7 – When you pray, you are not to be like the hypocrites; for they love to stand and pray in the synagogues and on the street corners so that they may be seen by men. Truly I say to you, they have their reward in full. “But you, when you pray, go into your inner room, close your door and pray to your Father who is in secret, and your Father who sees what is done in secret will reward you. “And when you are praying, do not use meaningless repetition as the Gentiles do, for they suppose that they will be heard for their many words.
As I began to “share” God with others, sharing my “walk with Him;” I began to realize that “I was not alone,” nor, did God want me to “be alone.” He began to “fill my heart” with love, and concern, for others; teaching me to “love my neighbor as myself.” And, since, I NEVER thought in terms of “loving myself,” it has been a bit of a difficult journey. I began to make progress, by accepting that I LIKED myself. Then, I found “liking others,” much more tolerable for me. I improve every day.
Realize, I had NEVER even told God/Jesus/the Holy Spirit, that I LOVED them, either. Today, I KNOW that I do; and I LOVE sharing that idea with anyone that will listen. I love writing about how God, Our Lord and Savior, fits into our daily lives. I love my prayer-life, my daily chat with the Lord.
Zephaniah 3:17 – The LORD your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exult over you with loud singing. I am also comforted by – Jeremiah 29:11– For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
So, I say to you….listen, and you will hear the word of God; as He talks specifically to YOU.
Photo Credit: That would be me.