“…I didn’t run away from it…. It was more that I didn’t run to it…”

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“…I didn’t run away from it…It was more that I didn’t run to it…”

What are you interested in? What subject matter turns you on?  What books do you read? What’s your favorite pastime?   Are you focused entirely on your career?  Are you focused entirely on your family, or social events?  What was your major in school?  Do you work in the same field as your educational studies prepared you?  What makes you get up early in the morning, go without lunch, and come home, too often, too late….for family dinner.  What do you do on Saturday and Sunday mornings?  What is your favorite charity?  As for me…while not in every case… the most important thing was my job.  Yes, for the record, my family and God came first; but my job trumped everything else in life.  Does that make me a bad guy?  I think, to some degree; yes, it does.  I was away from my family in the afternoon and evenings… so that I could go to evening college.  You could say that I did that for my career, and that would be true, but I also did it for my family, so that I could provide us with a future.  I worked on Saturdays, and went without vacations for the same reasons.  I didn’t have outside interests…reading, sports, or vacation….NOTHING.  Getting ahead in my job was all that mattered.  My wife taught my boys all about sports, scouting, social skills, and spiritual responsibilities. God Bless my wife. It all paid off…handsomely, some might say.  And, YES, I do have some regrets as to how I went about it all.  I came up in a family who believed in education; the kind that if you want it…get it for yourself.  And, so it was with everything.  I was taught that if you wanted something…. Save your money and buy it when you could afford it.  I say that, “I put God first,” but obviously I didn’t….  I didn’t want to think of myself otherwise.  Sure I went to Church, but that doesn’t mean that I was “in-fellow-ship” with Jesus.  In fact, you’ve heard me say it here on this website.  I was 50 years old before I ever owned a bible. I was 60 years old before I ever told Jesus that I love Him.  Just going to Church, and throwing a few dollars in the plate, and singing a few songs along the way….well, it doesn’t mean squat.  In fact, it doesn’t even mean that I really believed in the mystery of God, the Trinity, or the Crucifixion.  But, by the GRACE of God… He wouldn’t let me get off that easy. He wouldn’t let go.  He made me in His Image.  I was His Son, and He was my Father.  One does not, or should not MOCK God.  Somewhere in the process of time…. I finally got the message.  I began to put God FIRST, and FOREMOST.  But even then… it was “just for me.”  I was only concerned for my own SALVATION.  I had no interest in helping others find Christ. I didn’t run away from it….It was more that I didn’t run to it. But Jesus tells us that LOVE is the most important Commandment.   He tells us to Love our neighbor as ourselves.  I made a “spiritual-navigational-change,” a few years ago, that brought to my enlightenment (thank you Adrian); that when Jesus said in Matthew 28:19 Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost: It was then, and only then, that I realized that Jesus was talking to me.  He wanted me to be a “fisher-of-men.”  He wanted me to evangelize the Gospel.  He wanted me to “come out of the closet.” You see, up until then…. I was a “closet Christian.” Until I came out of satan’s closet; I  put me first….my life changed when I STOPPED putting ME first, and STARTED putting GOD FIRST! ….Blessings…cjlb…9/27/14.

About Charles Brooks

who is originally from Miami, Fla., moved to SC, holds two degrees from the University of SC. His business background is primarily in Real Estate Development (Motels, Hotel, Office Buildings, Restaurants, Residential) and Business Consulting. He currently is Managing Director of Brooks, Baker, Lehman & Kohlhepp - Investors in Real Estate and Mining, and has other business interests under the umbrella of Brooks Properties. FULL-TIME-MINISTRY: Fully engaged in spreading the Gospel of Our Lord Jesus Christ, with an emphasis on the Business Community.


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